creativity and it's ENEMY: guilt
creativity is such a funny thing.
something you just have no control over. there is nothing worse than a ‘creative’ to-do list…
for me it usually just comes down to the wire and the creativity kicks in at the last possible minute. i have GOT to figure out how to manage it better… but how?
did have a wonderful creative weekend… kara and janet came into town to work on education planning for next year. we brainstormed and designed classes for consumer shows, independant events, ckus and on-line projects… we had a BLAST. we cruised around to different supply stores (non-scrapbooking) to find materials and possibilities to think outside the box. awesome stuff emerged.. i am excited. usually as i focus on just one thing… i generate tons of ideas but i can’t FOCUS on more than one thing…and it’s usually NOT the thing that i am SUPPOSED to be focusing on.
but now.. it’s monday morning… and i am picking up the pieces of everything that i have dropped the ball on to be creative all weekend… and i feel so OUT OF CONTROL! dang. i have been dragging on laundry… just went to change the laundry this morning and i am thinking what was in the washer had been there since sat. morning… so it totally smelled all moldy. ***GROSS*** i just can’t keep up!
and then it sets in… the ultimate CRUSHER of all things creative: GUILT. so much is happening this week. colton is being baptized, cory is student of the week and my folks are coming to town. my to-do list this morning is UGLY.
deep breath… and ask myself… why the heck am i blogging??????????????????????
time to get serious