“Peace I Leave with You”
Of all of the beautiful stories ever written, the story of Peace and Hope that comes through the Savior of the world, and is celebrated during this beautiful time of year, has to be one of the most told stories in history… in my whole life of hearing this story… telling and re-telling this story… with and without eggs and bunnies… never has this story of the “Prince of Peace” been more of a source of strength and light than it is now for me. In honor of His life, and His death… and my own faith in His redeeming power, I would like to take a short pause … and share this video from mormon.org that has touched me so much, and reminded me of HOW through Jesus Christ, peace can be found.
About 20 months ago, when we lost our son Cory to suicide… I honestly didn’t know if I would EVER be able to find or feel peace ever again.
Questions… what felt like a million questions, with no answers seemed to be on repeat in my mind all the time. Why would Cory do this? What could I have done to help him? How did I not see this coming?
How could this happen to my family? What went wrong? With Cory gone, there was no way to resolve any of my questions, and i was completely devastated.
I realized that I was going to have to find a way to keep going, but with my thoughts consumed with questions, doubts, replaying memories searching for clues and answers, I felt frozen. I felt so frustrated, and afraid.
I did the only thing that I could think to do… turn to my Savior in prayer. They were more like just cry-sessions… but at that time, I KNEW that He understood my pain and my sorrow. I learned that PEACE is a special and specific gift that only the Savior can give… and he offers it to EVERYONE… but you have to accept the gift, through faith. I had to CHOOSE to believe in His redeeming and saving power, and recognize that it was not only for me, but also for Cory. Soon I found myself thinking less and less about the unknown, and focusing more and more on what I did know. I knew that my love for Cory was forever. I focused on my precious memories with Cory, and the gratitude that I felt for every photo, every moment with him, and our family. I know that our family is forever.
I learned that there is nothing too hard, too sad, too far gone for Christ. Not even my broken son, my broken heart, or our broken family.
I learned that even though I don’t understand, I can have peace, through Christ.
This doesn’t mean that I don’t miss Cory every day – I do. I miss him so much. It doesn’t mean that I like anything about this situation… but I am so grateful for my faith in Christ that reassures me daily. It carries me. I am thankful for his PEACE.
As we approach this week, and think of His suffering… betrayed, unjustly condemned, mocked, ridiculed and tortured… may we know that because of that, He understands us perfectly. We are not alone in our pain and suffering. And as we think about his triumphant resurrection, may we also know that because of that… we too will be reunited with our angels. I dream of that moment, when I am reunited with my sweet Cory – and can throw my arms around him and hold him.
I wanted to create a little reminder to print and place in my Lightbox for Easter that focused on the PEACE that comes from the Savior. I decided to quote one of my favorite scriptures from John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” I don’t want a troubled heart. Peace is better. I ‘d like to share this with you! You can download here for free! Print it onto acetate with a “borderless” setting (you could really also print on regular printer paper). Cut along the indicated lines, and slip them right into the regular sized Lightbox!
Please know how thankful I am to YOU for your support, love and prayers in our behalf.
I wish you a very peaceful, happy Easter. #PrinceofPeace